I was cruising around at 3 in the morning when I saw a meteor or something.

I might have finally lost it completely, but I know some shit was falling out of the sky.


Oh and my Zune broke, which means I have no music, which doesn't help anything.

Hello to anyone who gives a shit.

I have been digging a hole in the woods for the last week. It's about 6x5x5. It's been colder than an ice cube outside also, making digging very unpleasant.


The only reason I'm doing it is because I just need somewhere to go, a place to escape to. It's not that home life is bad, it just gets to the point where it is the same routine daily.

I can go into my box in the woods and just be, without anyone caring, including myself. It is enjoyable.


I have also seem to have lost the ability to question my actions. I do things on impulse without thinking, and even if the result is for better or for worse, I don't give a shit. I take the good and bad of life and make the best of it.




Maybe if I'm lucky it will fall in while I'm in it one day. Who knows.

Aloha.

Here's how it goes. I usually smoke things the court of law wouldn't approve of, and while in a state of mind that is enjoyable I get ideas for characters that seem cool. I try to put them on paper but that fails miserably. When I can't put them on paper, I'll get pissed and quit because I don't feel like trying. I'm unmotivated and it feels like my ideas are unoriginal, to me, and I don't know why. I browse around and see some of the art here and wonder why I even try, I suck lol. I'm sure there are some people who could look at some of the things I sketch up and say it looks good, but if it doesn't to me it's just crumpled up or burned.


Like I said, I have a lot of ideas but I just can't get them from nowhere onto paper. It sucks.

Have a happy whatever you celebrate.